who am I?

“If there’s so much I must be, can I still just be me? The way I am…”

This is a line from Lion King 2. I paused a second to think about it, and it struck me so suddenly, isn’t this how I feel now?! With so many choices in front of me, so many opportunities at hand, so many changes I need to make, so many things to do, so much pressure but so little time.

It struck me when I was filling out forms for my uni apps back home, it is to be sent out in 7 more days, my decision still sways from on to another, cant decide for the special ten. Is it really time to decide my future? Can’t I leave this in fates hand, ask him kindly to lead me where he thinks suits me best? However, how would he know what is best for me when he doesn’t even understand me. Leaving the decision to me.

I know what I want to study, but that doesn’t necessarily mean that is what I want to become.

Being a manager is quite tedious, but seeing the smiles on peoples face when they see what you have done to make them happy is the greatest satisfaction I can ask for.

Being a diplomat, tracing my fathers footstep, would be both exciting, stressing, and many sleepless nights. Traveling around the world, stopping at famous locations, visiting old friends, making new ones as you go along; and don’t forget the advantages you can get with a status like this. But, personally speaking, I think diplomats are fake, they smile at you when they don’t want to; they laugh at your jokes even if they don’t think its funny; they don’t offend anyone; they keep everything at its best. Not saying that this is bad, but, I don’t like it.

I just wana be me………but who am I?